So let’s talk about my favorite topic for a while…

25 05 2009

It’s me of course.

I thought I’d mention my recent regimine for health and well being.

The diet part is easy, lots of non-starchy vegetables, some key supplements (turmeric, fish oil, vitamin D, magnesium), lots of meat, a little bit of cheese, and that is about it. I have freed myself from the burden of a daily pot of coffee (and then some) each morning before work and now drink over a gallon of water per day, along with several cups of green tea, and the occasional energy drink (I can’t help it, I’m a speed freak!).

Not really a diet thing per say, but I also fast twice per week. First on Sundays and then on Tuesdays. Some times Thursdays as well, but depending on how hungry I am on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I won’t fast for a full 24 hours. I’ll allow myself a nice big meal before bed (otherwise, I simply cannot sleep). I keep it low carb, though.

The physical part is also easy. 10 minutes of yoga (spinal stretches), followed by jumping jacks (to get the blood pumping), and then a minimum of 15 minutes of meditation. This is my daily routine. On Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays (and some Saturdays I’ll do just an arm workout as well) I lift weights. This is a variation on HST where I do a set of 15 on Mondays, a set of 10 on Wednesdays, and a set of 5 repetitions on Fridays. When I do the arms on Saturdays, I keep lifting until I cannot lift any more.

The exercises I do as part of my strength training routine are:

  • Squats (for the Quadriceps and general ramping up of HGH/Testosterone at the beginning of the workout)
  • Single Leg Stiff Legged Dead lifts (for Hamstrings and Lower back)
  • Shoulder Press (for Deltoids of course)
  • Bench Press
  • Bent Over Rows (for the Lats)

Because I’m focusing on fat loss, I stop there. I do this routine on an empty stomach, first thing in the morning, and follow it up with breakfast (6 Omega3 eggs with turmeric, spinach, broccoli, onions, green peppers, sausage, and salsa). I don’t do the protein shake thing anymore. Once I get below 300 and its time to add some serious amounts of muscle, I may revisit this decision.

I’m not sure about the rest of you, but I seem to have such an easy time putting on muscle that the above routine is almost too much. It really seems to slow my weight loss. However, lifting weights makes me feel so good that I cannot see bringing myself to only lift twice per week (which is recommended by several people I respect for weight loss). Oh well, I only lose 2 or 3 pounds per week. I feel great, and I’m holding on to my muscle.

I also walk on occasion, I walk for a mile or so with my daughter Hannah 2 or 3 times per week. This isn’t really for exercise, it’s more Daddy-Daughter time than anything.

The biggest change in my life, which really seems to make getting healthy much easier is my focus on spirituality and overall health and well-being. You cannot neglect your connection to source. God is what will save you (whatever or whoever God is for you).

Also, working on myself. I realized that because my Mother showed me basically no affection when I was growing up (not blaming her, she was a saint compared to her own mother), I didn’t develop emotionally like I should have. I carry a lot of shame, especially around wanting/needing to be loved. This is a major cause of addiction in the world. Lots of screwed up parents (doing the best they knew how of course, we need to have compassion for them, because they were little children once as well, and were screwed over by their parents) didn’t give their kids the emotional bonding/attention that the kids needed so of course, the kids don’t know how to love others, receive love, or even love themselves.

Something that helped me was identifying my limiting beliefs (especially not deserving to be loved), writing them down on a note card, then writing new beliefs that were opposite to these (such as “I deserve to be loved”, “I deserve happiness”, and “I am connected in meaningful ways to others”), I then spoke out loud that I chose these new beliefs, and that from now on, the old beliefs were history. I then burned the old belief card (I should have maybe had Taps playing in the background when I did this).

This is all symbolic of course, and probably won’t be enough to instantly and permanently change my limiting beliefs, however, identifying the limiting beliefs, intentionally choosing new beliefs, and symbolically letting go of the old beliefs plants and nurtures the seed of change. Some day this too will be a mighty oak reaching for the sky…





Obesity is a spiritual problem

18 05 2009

My focus has moved away from weight loss into spirituality. In doing so, I’ve found a new passion, gained new insights into myself, and had some amazing experiences.

On top of it, I’ve lost 11 pounds.

I know that my body is changing to reflect the condition of my soul and my relationship to source. Now, I’m back on a low-carb diet, but for the first time ever, I’m not obsessed with food. I could care less about food most of the time.

More on this soon, but ask yourself this, are you using food to fill up a hole inside of you? Is this hole maybe caused by the fact that you’ve been neglecting your relationship to the divine?





Livin’ on the edge…

20 04 2009

My edge right now? Well, I have a couple.

One is speaking and living my truth. I have a very hard time talking to people about the thing that most concerns me and that is spirituality. I work in a corporate environment in the midwest, and I’m not sure most people would relate. Sometimes I feel like holding in my truth is killing me. I’m not sure how much longer I can stay in this environment. I think it’s about time for a change.

The next edge is attachment to outcome. I’ve heard that one should not be attached to outcomes, but that it is ok to have preferences. Sometimes I still want things so bad, I can taste them. I remind myself that I am all I need, I am enough, and that no matter what happens, I will be ok, but that doesn’t really diminish the wanting.

Things to work on, things to work on. But do I really need to work on them? Is there anything to really do? Or is it just a simple shift of perception? If so, how do I allow this shift to happen?





My Vision Statement

19 04 2009

I worked with my coach, Ray, to come up with a vision statement. It took a few minutes, but after talking about helping people connect to source, to grow, and to know themselves, I came up with this.

My vision statement is to raise the consciousness of all human beings.

That is a big statement, but I know I can do it. I can find a way to touch every human being on this planet.

My first goal is to raise my consciousness. I meditate daily, and I read and watch spiritual books/videos. I just finished David Deida’s Way of the Superior Man. Excellent book. A few movies that have really struck me lately are Yes Man and Wanted. I have physical practices as well, yoga, weight lifting, etc. I’m still missing something, however. I do not routinely feel connected to source. I know that this is an illusion because we are always connected to source. I want to find a way to realize my connection with source in every moment. Let me restate that. I WILL realize my connection with source in every moment. How can I do this? I’ll let you all know when I figure it out.

I’ve been realizing a lot of other things lately:

1. There is an energy that all living beings have and if we are tuned in well enough to ourselves, we can feel this energy coming from others. I’ve felt it several times in the past month. The first time blew my mind open. I’m now taking a class led by a psychic and an astrologer. I never would have seen myself in this situation in a million years, but I need to speak and live my truth. My truth is that there are things that I’m feeling that cannot be explained via conventional means so I’ve got to seek out other teachers, knowledge systems, and ways of being.

2. To grow you have to live on your edge. I’ve been living on my edge a lot lately, and I’ve done things that I never thought I would do. Sometimes I still fall back into my comfort zone, but something changed in me that makes me feel like hell when I’m skating by in life. I can’t do it anymore.

3. Life is choice. Choose your life wisely. Make the choices or they are made for you and your life turns into shit. Do you want a shit life? I don’t.

4. The biggest gift I can give is my strong masculine energy. I never had a strong, healthy example of masculine energy in my life (just abusive step-fathers). I find myself losing touch with my masculine center frequently. It sucks. I know when I’m there because I feel uncertain, scared, and indecisive. I’m still struggling with this.

This is just a random dumping of what is going on for me lately. Things are changing, I’m changing, life is changing. My focus isn’t so much on my physical health as it is on the health of my whole being.





I’ve been off on a journey

5 04 2009

A strange one at that. My entire world is changing before my eyes. First, it started on the inside, but as it is on the inside so it becomes on the outside.

I discovered a new diet program. I’ve not lost any weight on it, but right now my body seems to have other plans. That’s ok. I trust my body. I’ve not gained a pound and I keep gaining muscle.

The new diet program is the not a diet at all, it is called the Gabriel Method. If your body wants you to be fat, guess what, you’re gonna be fat.

I’ve rediscovered a very good song that I’ve always liked:

Ship of Fools by Robert Plant

On waves of love my heart is breaking
And stranger still my self control I can’t rely on anymore
New tides surprise – my world it’s changing
Within this frame an ocean swells – behind this smile I know it well

Beneath a lover’s moon I’m waiting
I am the pilot of the storm – adrift in pleasure I may drown
I built this ship – it is my making
And furthermore my self control I can’t rely on anymore
I know why – I know why
Crazy on a ship of fools
Crazy on a ship of fools
Turn this boat around – back to my loving ground

Who claims that no man is an island
While I land up in jeopardy – more distant from you by degrees
I walk this shore in isolation
And at my feet eternity draws ever sweeter plans for me
I know why – I know why
Crazy on a ship of fools
Crazy on a ship of fools
Turn this boat around – back to my loving ground
Oh no, oh no – ship of fools –

I love those first two lines, “On waves of love my heart is breaking, and stranger still my self control I can’t rely on anymore”. This is track number 1 on the soundtrack of my life, right now. I know why…

I’ve been getting up at 5:00 or 5:30 AM each day and meditating for a bit. I’ve also been doing a simple yoga set of exercises that I picked up from Anmol Mehta for spinal warm-ups that I use before I meditate and lift weights. I think it has had other benefits besides a looser back, but that is a tale for another day. My friend Swati shared this site with me (amongst many other wonderful things, I am deeply indebted to her for the grace and dignity within which she related to me).

The relationships in my life are improving and intensifying, I’m feeling calmer and more centered each day. I’ve met some interesting new people and I’ll be meeting more very soon (maybe you’ll be one of them?).

If you look around at a life that you don’t like, the first thing to realize is that it is the life of your choosing. Look at what you have chosen for yourself, my friend. This will hurt for some (most?) people, but knowing that this is a life of your choosing allows you to make different choices. Wake up. Make the choice. Do the thing you are most scared to do. Look that demon in the face. Your life will change at a rapid pace.





Off and back on the wagon, and the wonders of a good night’s sleep!

12 02 2009

Yep. I fell off again, but I’m back on. Life is proving to be a like the ocean. A costant ebb and flow of the tide coming and going. Some days energy is high, some days it is low, some days hunger is high, and others it is low.

As I go through my life, I notice when I’m feeling really good and when I’m feeling like crap, but I’ve had a hard time correlating the causes. I’ve kind of just shrugged my shoulders and thought it was part of the natural ebb and flow of being alive. But is it? Shouldn’t feeling good every day with high energy levels be maintainable long term? Am I just being naive?

My recent low and time of being off the wagon, seemed to be triggered by some crazy interactions with my semi-psychotic ex-wife. She was calling and screaming at me and would end up with crying about how she can’t take things. Let me be up front and say I do NOT like this kind of drama. I was working with my coach, Ray Brejcha about this, and he shared that this sounded a bit co-dependent and that this “relationship” seemed to cross healthy boundaries. He helped me to decide what I wanted out of the relationship. I knew what I didn’t want, but it took 3 or 4 tries to actually say what I wanted. Once I decided what I wanted (a business-like and cordial relationship that was focused solely on our children), things almost immediately improved.

Why is it so hard to decide and speak what you want? I’m not sure about you dear reader, but I find it very easy to say what I don’t want. In fact, I talk about what I don’t want quite a bit. I know that this is counter productive.

So what do I want out of this post? Funny you should ask. I want to to share the importance of deciding what you want out of life. 

I also meant to talk about the importance of a good night’s sleep. Got a bit off track there, eh?

I am recently the receiver of an excellent night’s sleep, and I notice in myself a feeling of general peace, contentment, and well-being. Of course, this is after 4 cups of coffee as well. However, I do the coffee thing every day, and not every day do I have the sweet sleep of the young and innocent, as I did last night. I’m neither young or innocent (shh, don’t tell anyone).

I found myself breaking out on my back (a sure sign of stress that I’ve noticed), and I started snapping at my kids. Not normal, and definitely not pleasant. I started asking myself what was going on, and noticing that I was feelign exhausted. I also realized that I wasn’t sleeping well (love affair with coffee and all), and decided to start taking melatonin again. What wonderful stuff, and so cheap and easy.

So this is my drug induced rant on the importance of sleep and making choices. The drugs of course being melatonin and coffee. :)





It’s been a while…

30 01 2009

It’s been a while. Not much to say, been working a lot of hours making the man a little richer. 

Things are getting better. My career is taking off, I’m getting along with my kids better, and I have a life coach. I’m sure this is all leading up to something good…

Enjoy this awesome song!





An inspiring quote.

20 01 2009

I got this quote from Bob Proctor today and it really spoke to me.

“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”

Martin Luther King, Jr.
1929-1968, American Civil Rights Leader






Down 3 more pounds.

15 01 2009

I’ve been stalled for the last week or so. I decided to try something that Jimmy Moore is doing, and that is to cut out all sweet tastes (basically artificial sweeteners). It worked! I’ve noticed that my appetite is severely reduced. When I was using fake sugar, I would eat 4500+ calories per day and still be hungy. Now, I ‘m eating less than 2500 per day and feeling stuffed.

If you are stalled and you are drinking lots of diet pop or are eating sugar free candy, try eliminating these things from your diet and see if the stall breaks.





Down two more pounds.

5 01 2009

I was down two more pounds this morning. But that isn’t the exciting news. I fasted yesterday and I felt so good that I decided to go back to daily intermittent fasting! If you’ve never tried it, I highly recommend it. My energy levels are through the roof!

I also joined a great forum called the Magic Bus Trip which is dedicated to a carnivorous way of life and zero carb eating. There is some really great info there and lots of nice folks.

I’ve been doing VLC (Very Low Carb) for a week now and have to admit I feel great! I’m still drinking lots of coffee and energy drinks, but I would like to cut back. It’s going to be hard because I love caffeine.

I’m off to lift weights.